Post by Scatterplot Matrix on Mar 28, 2017 7:24:25 GMT -6
I was an absolute jerk to everyone here. I recognize that. I bullied y'all, I offended people with sick, cruel jokes. I was a toxic person, and I thought it was okay since nobody spoke out against me. I was the admin, I had full power over this site. and I didn't realize it then but I was severely abusing my power. I did deserve this IP ban. I am not going to make excuses for myself. What I have done to this place is inexcusable, what I've done to all of you is absolutely unacceptable. And I would like to apologize sincerely, wholeheartedly, for being such a headass.
Now I'll address you, Lovelin: I can't express how sorry I am. I straight-up bullied you. I was whiny when things didn't go the way I wanted them. You were already suffering and I was just another thing to worsen your life. I cannot believe how you managed to stick around with me for so long; I did not deserve your friendship. I was a tyrant to you and everyone here, a hypocrite, an edgelord, some disgusting fungal disease in the heart of this website. A disgusting fungal disease that grew on and consumed you.
I'm sorry.
I started to fade off of this site when I joined the polandball community on Instagram. That community was full-on Neo Nazi, homophobic, racist, etc. That community absolutely brainwashed me. I cyberf*cked grown men over DMs. I told people with terminally ill relatives abusive cancer jokes. I dated 40-year old disgusting men. I was an absolute failure.
I'm so sorry. None of you deserved the toxicity I spewed, not one bit. You're all wonderful, wholesome people and none of you deserved what I did.
There's definitely going to be someone who thinks I typed this to reclaim this website as my ow. And I don't deny; I would love to be unbanned, I would love to come back here again. But I won't beg for it like a dog. It is the plaza's decision what y'all do with me and scatterplots-scattershots. I know that I am an absolute toxicity and danger to this place full well, and I know I will never achieve admin or moderator status again because I abused that privilege so heartily and thoroughly. And I know that there are still people who think this is a plea for attention, and I know it doesn't seem like it but I am sorry. I would love to return here as a plain old member, and to partake in the roleplays and threads again. And I promise to mend my ways. If I act up, everyone has every right to ban me and never let me back in again.
I know that this apology is rushed and likely contains infinite typos, rendering it illegible. I typed this hurriedly on a school computer with frozen hands while evading others' eyes.
Thank you, thank you for taking the time to read this. I love you all. And I know that you'll all choose whatever is best for the plaza. And if you choose not to let me back in, I will understand. I have grown exponentially since my days of sex studios (//shudder)
If anyone needs to contact me, PM me on Reddit. I'm hexcodeblue there. And once you reach a final decision about me and this account, please tell me over Reddit (as I'm not active on Instagram anymore).
You all are absolutely amazing people. None of you deserved the disease that was 10yo me.
With regards,
Charm
Now I'll address you, Lovelin: I can't express how sorry I am. I straight-up bullied you. I was whiny when things didn't go the way I wanted them. You were already suffering and I was just another thing to worsen your life. I cannot believe how you managed to stick around with me for so long; I did not deserve your friendship. I was a tyrant to you and everyone here, a hypocrite, an edgelord, some disgusting fungal disease in the heart of this website. A disgusting fungal disease that grew on and consumed you.
I'm sorry.
I started to fade off of this site when I joined the polandball community on Instagram. That community was full-on Neo Nazi, homophobic, racist, etc. That community absolutely brainwashed me. I cyberf*cked grown men over DMs. I told people with terminally ill relatives abusive cancer jokes. I dated 40-year old disgusting men. I was an absolute failure.
I'm so sorry. None of you deserved the toxicity I spewed, not one bit. You're all wonderful, wholesome people and none of you deserved what I did.
There's definitely going to be someone who thinks I typed this to reclaim this website as my ow. And I don't deny; I would love to be unbanned, I would love to come back here again. But I won't beg for it like a dog. It is the plaza's decision what y'all do with me and scatterplots-scattershots. I know that I am an absolute toxicity and danger to this place full well, and I know I will never achieve admin or moderator status again because I abused that privilege so heartily and thoroughly. And I know that there are still people who think this is a plea for attention, and I know it doesn't seem like it but I am sorry. I would love to return here as a plain old member, and to partake in the roleplays and threads again. And I promise to mend my ways. If I act up, everyone has every right to ban me and never let me back in again.
I know that this apology is rushed and likely contains infinite typos, rendering it illegible. I typed this hurriedly on a school computer with frozen hands while evading others' eyes.
Thank you, thank you for taking the time to read this. I love you all. And I know that you'll all choose whatever is best for the plaza. And if you choose not to let me back in, I will understand. I have grown exponentially since my days of sex studios (//shudder)
If anyone needs to contact me, PM me on Reddit. I'm hexcodeblue there. And once you reach a final decision about me and this account, please tell me over Reddit (as I'm not active on Instagram anymore).
You all are absolutely amazing people. None of you deserved the disease that was 10yo me.
With regards,
Charm